Today was a milestone! I submitted the paperwork to officially homeschool Croix.
At six years old, this means more than just a decision…it’s a commitment. He’s now required to take annual evaluations with a certified teacher. I’ll need to keep a portfolio of his work.
I cried a little submitting the form. Not because I regret the decision, but because it’s real now. They had him assigned to a school in our own neighborhood. And while that might’ve been convenient… I chose otherwise.
I asked myself all the scary questions:
“Will he hate me for this?”
“Am I holding him back?”
“Am I qualified to do this?”
“Am I holding myself back?”
Then I remembered:
“For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.” — 2 Timothy 1:7
Y’all know how I get those little reminders; those quiet nudges that I am doing the right thing. That I am enough. That this journey, while unfamiliar, is led by faith. And when I center myself again in that truth, the fear fades.
I also had a moment where I thought about enrolling him anyway. Just so I could finally breathe! Perhaps Chill. Catch up on all the things that pile up when you’re a mom, wife, teacher, therapist, and chef in one. But then I remembered my why. I remembered him. His needs. His strengths. His joy when he learns through play and movement and sensory exploration. That can’t be replicated for him in a traditional classroom right now.
So I said no to ease—and yes to purpose.
And honestly, I feel better knowing he’s not getting bullied, closed in a closet, passed on when he’s not ready, or left behind. In our homeschool, he’s seen, supported, and growing at his pace. I know I can’t protect him forever and that’s not what all of this is about. But this part? This season? It’s one where I can help build his confidence, protect his joy, and help him feel safe while learning. And that matters.
✨ 3 Ways to Effectively Release the Fear of Not Choosing Public School:
1. Shift Your Measure of Success
Public school has its benchmarks, but so does your child. Focus on their growth, not the system’s pace. Redefine success as joy in learning, progress over perfection, and connection over compliance.
2. Lean Into Community
You are not alone. Find other homeschooling families (online or locally), especially those who understand your values. Seeing others on this path affirms that what you’re doing is not only valid but it’s powerful!
3. Keep Your “Why” Visible
Write it down. Post it on the fridge. Say it out loud. Your “why” will anchor you when comparison, doubt, or exhaustion show up. Your choice is rooted in love and love is always enough to begin again!
I remembered my why: and here we go! Our homeschool year begins (according to the county) soon, and we’ll be doing things a little differently. Croix will be homeschooled year-round, which means we’re not tied to the traditional school calendar. So instead of rushing to match everyone else’s first day, we’ll choose a date that feels right, one that kicks off our new curriculum and makes him feel celebrated! I’m going to plan a first day that feels just as magical as any classroom, because he deserves a start that’s made just for him!
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